Don't blame it on the sunshine.....

Spring is most definitely here! I’m sitting outside, on my chair, apple juice in one hand and a fag in the other, and taking in the scent of freshly cut Finsbury Park grass. To say that this was needed is an understatement. It seems I’m not the only one affected by SADS (Seasonal Affected Disorder). All my close friends have realised they all need a holiday with sunshine after their moods lifted since the sun made an unexpected appearance! I think I shall follow suit and go to a few sunny places this year… I’m manifesting Barcelona and Egypt again!

I’ve just returned back to London from visiting my family back in Norfolk. My short break was well overdue and it just goes to show that a bit of unconditional love from family, children and animals goes a long way. Although I only had a few days back home, it really gave me an opportunity to relax and rekindle with my personal self, something we should all do once in a while. I have started to recognise things in me that will help me to connect with my emotional, mental and physical needs and know when I am self-destructing these precious elements of human existence. But it’s only just the start of this journey of sensitivity and self-awareness. I do not know all the answers and I am not going to start making irrational decisions. Positivity and honesty will be a new mantra that I should keep in mind – positivity in actions and honesty to myself.

London seems lifted, spring has sprung, but my room is still a mess. I was listening to programme about cleaning on radio 4 with the Scottish one from ‘How Clean is your House’ (Kim or Aggie, both as insane as each other) explaining that people don’t ‘spring clean’ anymore as we so frequently do it over the course of the year, but merely ‘de-clutter’. I was also informed by the programme that cleaning products should drop in price over the next month. Looks like I need to get me to Sainsburys and buy the shelves bare and ‘de-clutter’ the SHIT out of my room. Tidy house, tidy mind and all.

And  to you hounds who want me to write more…. This is my blog. This is my opportunity to express how I feel in a cohesive manner. It’s my cathartic memoirs. I will not feel pressured, I will not feel obligated, and this will not become a chore to do. I give so much of my soul for others pleasure, entertainment and wants. This blog is not one of them.

‘Live, love, be’